Hi Everybody! Today's blog is a little different for me and a bit more difficult as well. Some of you [if not all] know that I suffer from chronic pain. I am 56[nearly] and have been in pain since I was 13. I had a normal [ish] childhood. Migraines were my poison then! The older I got the worse and more often they got!!!
I have always tried to have a positive attitude regardless of what was going on!
Fast forward to now. Chronic pain can and will run your life...I can't do that ,it will hurt too much. i don't dare walk to far, I won't be able to walk tomorrow. I can't do this, I can't do that...until you are ready to scream!!!! Chronic pain is a devil from hell and that is where we want him to go...right back to hell!!! Did you notice I said "him"? LOL
Personally, I have found that the longer I have chronic pain the more it has become "normal". It is like waking up in the morning stiff. Oh that's normal, I can live with that. Oh my knee hurts, but no more than normal I always have back pain,[sciatica], strain and burning in my shoulders, stiff neck, pain and tingling in my arms and legs, and I could keep going but you get the picture. But it is "normal" for me and I have learned to live with it....!. My real enemy is headaches, they have been all along. I literally have a headache every day!! Someone would ask me how I was and I would say "ok, I have a headache...but that is everyday!" It finally hit me last week that having a headache is right there with my other normal pains. I don't say ok, my back hurts or my feet hurt etc... so why am I saying I have a headache? True, I do have one but on a scale of 1-10 maybe it is a 2 or 3 or even a high 4. Are you following me here?
So last week I decided to not say I had a headache when some one asked.. I was going to say Great or Outstanding or Peachy [I like Peachy]! I have done that everyday since last week! The headaches have not changed. i still have pain everyday...But the significance that I give them is much less. They still hurt but the importance is not there anymore. They have become "Normal", not special and not a driving force in my life.
Now if i get a headache, it has to be a 5 or better on that 1-10 scale before I will give it any attention [meds, I only take tylenol or ibuprophen], fussing, cussing, crying[don't recommend this it only makes them worse] or what ever is needed. I have decided very clearly, very deliberately that headaches under a 5 will no longer have any sway over my life. They are "normal". Doing this takes practice and I have to believe it!
A lot of people have much more pain than i have. This may not make sense to you or you might think I am crazy, [ you may be pretty close LOL] but for me...this works!
Thank you so much for letting me ramble!!! Share your pain here if you want! I will always pray for your comfort and strength. Let me know what you think!!! I really do want to know!!!
Please do not think I am make light of chronic pain. i'm not, I am however tired of the control it has over my life. This is how i am taking back a little control!!!